Giving Thanks

Well its thanksgiving morning and im up right breathing in and out so thats the first thing to be thankful for. I have really struggled over the last month with not finding that "right one" and being able to start a family. I have had several friends give birth to beautiful children and many get in engaged. Its so easy to ask; whats wrong with me, why not me, what do I do that is so wrong? Having faith is a struggle for me! Right now I truly believe that God has omitted the whole fairy tale life for me ie husband, and children. After a deep long discussion with my roomie Quenna, (who is in the same boat that im in) it became clear that I have sooooo much to be thankful for. I received a quazi promotion at work that will hopefully be permanent with in the year. With that, God put me with the best group of people at the PD to start with, I will learn so much from the people I work along side of! I own my own home that I have not missed a payment on, I am healthy, I have a job, an AMAZING FAMLIY, and great friends. A friend of mine, her little boy went to the doctor last thursday with what they thought was a bad sinus infection, well..... it was a brain tumor that was making him very sick! He had surgery on Tuesday and hopefully the doctors were able to remove it! Im gonna pray for faith to trust that God is helping me avoid a lot of uneccesary situations by delaying my time! He has shown me situations daily that I could be in, however I have been blessed with the talent and opportunity to learn from others mistakes and success!

The Period of Change

My life has been a whirl wind of change over the last month. The change has been good, but I always hate the transition of change! Sleep has come easy thank god! However working night shift really shows how empty my life really is, working second shift is a good way to cover up that fact. The next year will definitely be interesting for sure! Work is great but if I could someday tie up the loose ends in the rest of my life that would be great. Oh well im not gonna lose too much sleep over it, im gonna put on my seat belt and hold on for the ride and see what happens!

To whom it may concern

This letter is to the man I will one day spend the rest of my life with. I don't know who you are, or if you exist. I don't know if we have met or if you are a total stranger at this point. Whoever you are, I promise to love you til death do us part. I will thank God everyday for sending me the man of my dreams. When people say, you all have the best relationship, or I wish I had a relationship like yours, I will not boast, I will be humble and thank God once again. I will be there for you through thick and thin, I will love you and everything that comes with you, your mother, your father, and children if you have them. I you have children I promise to love them as if they are my own. I will weather the storm and will always be right there by your side. To make our unconditional love last, I promise I will do whatever needs to be done! Yeah yeah I know thats all parts of my favorite song (Can you stand the rain) but nothing explains it better. I just want you to know that I need somebody who will always stand by me, when its touchy, you won't run, I need to know that you will always be right there for me too! If we can agree on those things, I promise that you will have the most faithful, loyal, loving wife any man could ever have.

I have no idea what level I just got on but it was deep. I think its because im becoming a year older and my emotions are high! I will be back to normal on the 5th:)

Things that are great

The other day, I was day dreaming of things that are just simply great. Here they go;

Finding money that you didn't know you had in your coat or pants pocket

The first bite of your favorite food

Laughing do hard that your face hurts

Acing a test of some sort

A shade tree

Waking up from a dead sleep, looking at the clock and realizing that you have hours of sleep left

Hearing a great song for the first time

Christmas day with the whole family

Hitting a softball with the sweet spot of the bat

A genuine hug from somebody you love

A kiss from my mom, that leaves lipstick on my cheeks

An ice cold coke in a glass bottle

The smell of a new car

A pedicure

Spending quality time with your best friends

Laying on the beach

Reading a good book

The kick from the gears shifting on a crotch rocket

There are so many more, but its the simple things in life that are great. As I grow, I learn to appreciate the little things.